Wenn ich weitergeh

[Verse 1] Woke up with my jaw still clenched Same old coffee, same old fence Between the life I thought I’d live And the one that took its place Shirt half-buttoned, keys in hand Phone keeps buzzing, cracked nightstand I hear you calling from your chair Before I’m out the door [Verse 2] You say, “Boy, I can’t find my shoes” They’re right there where I left ‘em for you Bathroom floor is slick and cold I hold you up, I feel you fold Smell of pills and yesterday Tangled sheets that won’t stay straight You curse the air for growing old Then grab my wrist too tight [Pre-Chorus] I swallow words that burn my tongue Lord knows I’m tired, but I still run Every promise that I made Got your name written on it [Chorus] I’m the last one holding up this house Worn-out spine, worn-thin vows If I walk away, you fall straight down, ooh So I push my body past the line Trade my heartbeat for your time I’m the last one holding up this house And it’s tearing through It’s tearing through me now [Verse 3] Yesterday the sink backed up Mail piled high, red-stamped luck Laundry mountain, unpaid bills My own face on the window sill I caught my shadow looking old Blue half-moons beneath my soul Stared myself right in the eye Didn’t know that man [Verse 4] You rang that bell till metal screamed Your voice cut sharp right through my dream “Don’t you leave me here alone Don’t forget to fix my phone” I missed that call I’d waited for Friend gave up, won’t try no more Every favor, every plan Slips out from my hands [Pre-Chorus] My name’s worn down to just “Hey, you” I nod, I lift, I see it through Every door I close on me Keeps you from the dark [Chorus] I’m the last one holding up this house Worn-out spine, worn-thin vows If I walk away, you fall straight down, yeah So I push my body past the line Trade my heartbeat for your time I’m the last one holding up this house And it’s tearing through It’s tearing through me now [Bridge] [leise] There’s a scream caught in my teeth A suitcase packed inside my dreams A bed that never knew my weight last night Clock hands crawling round and round Blue TV glow, no sleeping sound I count the cracks that crawl across my mind [laut] I could say “I can’t no more” I could drop these keys, walk out that door But your eyes, they pull that thought back in ‘Cause I’m your only place to land Your shaking glass, your steady hand The rope that keeps you standing on this ground [Breakdown – flüsternd] I’m so tired I’m so tired, but I stay [Chorus] I’m the last one holding up this house Worn-out spine, worn-thin vows If I step aside, you crash straight down, oh So I drive my body like it’s steel Hide these cracks that never heal I’m the last one holding up this house And it’s tearing through It’s tearing through me now [Outro] [leise] Morning’s bleeding through the blinds Yesterday still in my eyes Kettle screams, the floorboard cries You call my name again I stand up slow, I breathe in deep Fold my anger, tuck it neat Take one step, then two more feet And the road just Ends…