Mockingbird auf Anschlag

[Intro] [leise] Yeah Look... This one for you [Verse 1] I remember cracked plates in the sink, late shouting in the next room (uh) Daddy's shadow on the wall, mama packing up the guest room Blue lights painting through the blinds, I was counting how they swept through Cartoons on the TV, trying not to let the dread bloom School shoes by the door, but I ain't wanna leave the hallway 'Cause when the front lock turned, it could go the wrong way Whiskey on his breath, thunder in his handshake Tried to read his mood by how the keys hit the ashtray I learned how to tiptoe, breathe soft, read weather in a furrowed brow Promised if I ever had a kid, I'd do better, somehow (yeah) But those lessons that I hated got engraved in me All the rage and the silence, they were raised with me Had me punching drywall just to feel my fists break Talking to a ceiling fan, spinning like a mixtape Praying for a future that ain't built on my mistakes Still waking up sweating from the sound that a glass makes [Pre-Chorus] So when they laid you on my chest, I was split in two (split in two) Half terrified of me, half terrified for you (for you) Looking at your tiny hands like, "What you holding me to?" Heard my father in my breathing, had to change how I move [Chorus] I will be the break in the chain (yeah) I won't let your sky know that rain (no) I'll carry the weight and the blame So you never feel the same old pain If I fall, I'll fall in the way That still makes a shield when I lay I will be the break in the chain I will be the break in the chain [Verse 2] Now it's 3 A.M., you're coughing in the crib, I'm wide awake (I'm up) Phone lighting up with deals, but I'd trade 'em all for your sake There's a bottle on the table that I never touch (never) 'Cause the last time that I did, I scared the ones I love (fuck) I saw you in the doorway, big eyes, small frame My voice too loud, my face all vein You didn't cry, you just stared like you was taking notes And I heard every promise that I ever spoke So I'm in therapy at two, studio at four Tryna clean the house inside before you learn the door Got a temper like a live wire, biting on it daily Writing verses in the driveway so it don't betray me Every diaper, every drawing on the kitchen wall Every "Daddy, look at this" is like a curtain call I never had a roadmap, only streets I shouldn't cross But loving you is like directions written over every loss [Pre-Chorus] When you fall and scrape your knee, I see my childhood too (I do) See a little me waiting on someone to come through (come through) So I kneel down to your level, learn to tell the honest truth "Sometimes Daddy gets it wrong, but I'm always here for you" [Chorus] I will be the break in the chain (yeah) I won't let your sky know that rain (no) I'll carry the weight and the blame So you never feel the same old pain If I fall, I'll fall in the way That still makes a shield when I lay I will be the break in the chain I will be the break in the chain [Bridge] [leise] One day you'll be taller than the stories that I told you (taller) You might hate me for a season when the rules start to hold you You'll say I'm just like him, and that'll cut like glass (damn) 'Cause I see his jaw in the mirror when I'm shaving past But I won't hide the truth, I won't rewrite the scenes We'll rewind the home tapes, let you hear me at nineteen Hear the fear in my laugh, hear the crack in my speech See how far a broken boy went just to keep you out of reach Of the nights that I swallowed every shout I could Of the doors that I locked just to keep you feeling good You might never understand it, that's the price I'm paying I'll take every misunderstanding if it keeps you from the weighing [Breakdown] [love-geschrien, dann leise] I ain't running from your questions (no) You can ask me anything (anything) If you ever feel that pressure Hand it to me, I'll take that sting [Chorus] I will be the break in the chain (yeah) I won't let your sky know that rain (won't let it, no) I'll carry the weight and the blame So you never feel the same old pain If I fall, I'll fall in the way That still makes a shield when I lay I will be the break in the chain I will be the break in the chain [Outro] [flüsternd] If my father couldn't love me right, that's on him, not you I turned every "why me" into "for you, I'll push through" When you sleep, I sit and watch the rise in your small frame And I swear on every scar I got, it stops with your name (yeah)